From the recording Still searching for STAN
Lyrics
I m sorry that I hurt you
Wasn't faithful
I wish I could turn back
The times that I desert you
I adored you
I was searching for you
For you
I was searching for you
For you
I was searching
Still searching for you
You are the one I adore yeah
Deep emotions
But you can't be found
Not even in the deepest oceans
Not on the highest mountains
Not in this lonely sound
I did not desert you
But I know I hurt you
I had no clue
Our love is true
We used to be so close no matter the weather
Always together
Like Bonnie & Clyde nothing to hide
Always by your side
Didn't even put up a fight when fucking Alice turned up
Who the fuck is Alice ?!
She came from the back to cut you from inside
Just a fake plastic picture palace
Fucked me all up
You could have thought you lied
Straight to my face
That bright night
When I asked you if you loved me
Just to hide how much you love me
Deep inside
That tear never dried
Cuz you lied
Too much pride? No too afraid of rejection in plain sight
I know you would say I am so sorry
I deserted you
Now I'm always looking after you
From above
And it is you I will always love
I regretted jumping the second I did
And thought of you
Even after the ground I hit
Impossible but love goes beyond this realm
Emotions overwhelm
That's what I have found
Is so fucking real
In my dreams it is you that I feel
But I'm always waking up alone
When will you come back home ?
Can you hear me crying in this lonely tone ?
I m sorry that I hurt you
Wasn't faithful
I wish I could turn back
The times that I desert you
I adored you
I was searching for you
For you
I was searching for you
For you
I was searching
When we meet again
I won't pretend that I am not loving you
I hold on to you
So fucking tight
That one night
You'll know it's true
Maybe we were too young did not know true love feels different
You felt like my home like
I was already your wife so peaceful every night
I stayed by your side
So magnificent
I wished this would never end never ever be over
Being completely fucking sober
Laying next to you
I know everyone can feel the pain in my voice
Time does not heal wounds
Since you left it flies
By so fast it's like it's picking up speed
The faster the better
Sooner we'll be back together
I could never forget you
Not even Jeanna can smoke that much weed makes me blue
Cuz you made me complete
It's true
Listening to my heart pound to your beat
I know you would have never believed
That's loosing you would make me a rapper that's how my lonely heart grieved
I could not listen to any music but Eminem for years that's how much you made my heart bleed along with the Buckets of tears for all these years
Till I finally rose from the ashes
Still seeing your face in flashes
Wenn wir uns wiedersehen Steffen
Geh ich nie mehr weg
Widerstand hat da absolut keinen Zweck
You know I love you so!
I m sorry that I hurt you
Wasn't faithful
I wish I could turn back
The times that I desert you
I adored you
I was searching for you
For you
I was searching for you
For you
I was searching